Opened Once
December 25, 2010 § Leave a comment
How it ends
December 23, 2010 § Leave a comment
My pieces of 2010.
Some video, some stop-motion, some slideshow, some highs, some lows, some revelations:
ICP and beyond – My year at the International Centre of Photography, New York
Pre-Games – When friends come over for the party before the party
In the early AM – Heading downtown in a cab, late one night/early one morning with Ling
Sneak peek – A cracked window on how I like to “work”
Escape to Fort Myers – Brief respite from New York in Florida
Insomnia – No sleep in April
Loss – I lost someone
Getting personal – Understanding what it means to be separate
From England to Australia – Journeying away on wobbly post-ICP legs
x Ying + Ling
How it begins
December 20, 2010 § Leave a comment
Roots
December 14, 2010 § 5 Comments
My father. All he did was work. Work and spend time with us. I didn’t have him around for half of my childhood, lost to the office in another country, the office that was a home, where he worked, slept, ate. Those long weeks where I cried myself to sleep every time I got scared that he wasn’t coming back. He built for me here. Everything I have.
A shophouse near Clarke Quay | Singapore
Homelanding
December 14, 2010 § Leave a comment
Where should I begin? After all, you have never been there; or if you have, you may not have understood the significance of what you saw, or thought you saw. A window is a window, but there is looking out and looking in. The native you glimpsed, disappearing behind the curtain, or into the bushes, or down the manhole in the main street – my people are shy – may have been only your reflection in the glass. My country specialises in such illusions.
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In summer we lie about in the blazing sun, almost naked, covering our skins with fat and attempting to turn red. But when the sun is low in the sky and faint, even at noon, the water we are so fond of changes to something hard and white and cold and covers up the ground. Then we cocoon ourselves, become lethargic, and spend much of our time hiding in crevices. Our mouths shrink and we say little.
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By now you must have guessed: I come from another planet. But I will never say to you, take me to your leaders. Even I – unused to your ways though I am – would never make that mistake. We ourselves have such beings amongst us, made of cogs, pieces of paper, small disks of shiny metal, scraps of coloured cloth. I do not need to encounter more of them.
Instead I will say, take me to your trees. Take me to your breakfasts, your sunsets, your bad dreams, your shoes, your nouns. Take me to your fingers; take me to your deaths.
These are worth it. There are what I have come for.
~ Excerpts taken from Homelanding, in the book “Good Bones” by Margaret Atwood
Succour and relief
December 14, 2010 § Leave a comment
Founded in 1682 by King Charles II and intended for the ‘succour and relief of veterans broken by age and war’. I walked amongst the cultivated roses, grapevines carefully nudged to life by veterans from the first world war. Listening to stories from another life, brought out and dusted off in a perfect English garden. He cut me down a peony, presented it with a flourish.
“The Royal Hospital Chelsea will be here for todays young soldiers on the front line when they retire.”
The Royal Hospital Chelsea
London, England
Body from the reservoir
December 14, 2010 § Leave a comment
He told me that he had to pull a body from the reservoir the other day. Bloated, afloat, stagnant water and the tropical green, almost visceral. A concerted effort to remain stoic. It’s all part of the service apparently. Ruff, Shaf and Nat – halfway through their mandatory term in the army.
National Service, Singapore.
Too much gin, not enough tonic
December 13, 2010 § Leave a comment
December in Saigon. 2:something am. Colonial relics and disco lights. Streaking through the streets on the back of Kevin’s bike. I hang on tight. Miss Maitland and a sparkly little number. Too much gin, not enough tonic.
When it happens
December 13, 2010 § Leave a comment
New people, walking into my life, unfamiliar voices from familiar smiles that I recognise immediately as one of my kind. A saunter through the half light beaded sweat of Siem Reap, arm in arm, bursts of laughter – the kind that explodes.
When it happens, I wonder how I got so lucky.